So, as a depressed, unsuccessful writer I feel like I’m a failure at everything I’ve ever done. Including this blog. I just don’t have the bandwidth anymore to keep this Tumblr updated.
But what is updated is my Facebook and Twitter. And I post recent articles I’ve written and have been featured in on my website.
On Valentine’s Day last year, I was released from the mental hospital after trying to end my life. My favorite artist, Dawn Richard, is one of the reasons I’m alive today. #DAWNSavedMyLife
*Trigger warning: discussion of suicide attempt*
I cried last night thinking about how hard this past year has been.
Some of us had IVs in our arms. Some of us drank activated charcoal and couldn’t walk because of what we did to our bodies.
I didn’t think I would live to the end of 2018, but for a lot of us, we’re still here.
It’s confusing some days. I left the mental hospital in the clothes I attempted in with no house keys and a paper bag.
Sometimes I feel like I’m freefalling with no real direction because I prepared to die but I didn’t prepare to live. I’m figuring out what I should do with myself. I don’t know what my life should look like after a suicide attempt, but I’m glad to be alive to figure that out.
Some of us are here because we clung to the one floatation device we had. That could be a song, a pet, a dream, or a loved one.
If you’re just floating or if you found land, I hope you know that you are not alone and that you are apart of a community of people who feel what you feel and lived what you lived. We’re in this together.
“When you live with “quiet” borderline personality disorder (BPD), oftentimes you’re used to ‘acting in’ — counter to the “acting out” people have come to associate with BPD. Because of the inward nature of quiet BPD, it might be that much harder for you to come right out and tell someone, “I need help.” Someone with quiet BPD might resort to using “code words” or phrases to indicate they are struggling to the people in their lives — without having to say it out loud.” Read More
Spotted on No More Martyrs:
“I’ve gotten more death threats from Black men than anybody else. After Cosby was indicted and R. Kelly took off, I got tons of threats from Black men.”
There is so much to unpack here. We got to step it up and make sure Tarana Burke has the support she needs. Read Article
Federal prisons are not classifying mentally ill inmates as having mental health needs to reduce their workloads. And the lives of inmates are suffering as a result. Read Article
White supremacy will weaponize our mental health against us, smh. But we ain’t forgot. #SayHerName Read Article
“What I’ve learned through this is that your therapy sessions should not be a test of how many microagressions you can endure. As black women, we are the experts of our lived experiences. We have the right to have mental health support that acknowledges how our journey is different from others.” Read More
I wrote this article for a majority white pub and tried to comply with their toned-down standards but they got shook so here it is on Medium. White mental health pubs will invite you through the door, then tell you to go back out and slam the door in your face the moment you’re too black, smh.
I hope you see a piece of yourself in this article.
Black folks are talking about personality disorders. YESSSSSS.
“NYC based Psychiatrist Dr. Jessica Clemons joins us to discuss mental health, personality disorders, when/how to know therapy is right for you and expectations before starting your sessions.” Listen to Podcast
“‘Nowhere2go’ is the most fluid stream of thoughts Earl has released in some time. This song seems to indicate that he needed to just take some time and get his mind right, after experiencing setback after setback.” Read More